Healthy Vibes

I will write about the following, anonymously leave one in my ask box 
Dear ex,
Dear girl I hate,
Dear boy I like,
Dear ex bestfriend,
Dear bestfriend,
Dear mom,
Dear dad,
Dear Santa,
Dear future me,

Guess who used to be a size eight but is now a size FOUR?

WOOHOO!

Because I am >:-(

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undressedskeleton:

Biggest Secrets & Fears.

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? Depends on the day. I’m usually more happy with my appearance than not.

Are You Depressed? No :)

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? No

Have you ever gone to a psychologist? Yes, weekly since I was 9

I AM.

[] anorexic 
[] ednos 
[] bulimic 
[] living off diet pills 
[x] hungry 
[] thirsty 
[] drinking something 
[] Under 100lbs 
[] fasting/starving myself

PEOPLE: 
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic 
[x] have called me fat
[x] have said I’m skinny
[x] have said I’m ugly 
[x] have said I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me 
[] force me to eat 
[] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more 
[] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I WISH: 
[x] I was thin 
[x] I had a better body 
[] I didn’t have to eat 
[x] I could control myself 
[] I was under 110lbs 
[] I could avoid food 
[] I could hide what I am 
[] I wasn’t fat 
[] I was pretty 
[] I could stop being anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I LOVE:
[] feeling hungry 
[] seeing a difference when fasting 
[] shaking 
[] feeling airy 
[x] losing weight 
[] being anorexic/bulimic 
[x] green tea 
[] diet pills 
[x] being able to turn down food 
[x] feeling good about myself 

APPEARANCE: 
[] I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes
[] I have many scars 
[] I wish my hair was a different color
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[] I have/had braces 
[] I wear glasses 
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free 
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[]  I have more than 2 piercings
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears 
[x] I have freckles 

FAMILY:
[] I’ve sworn at my parents
[] I’ve run away from home 
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house 
[x] My biological parents are together 
[] I have a sibling less than one year old 
[x] I want to have kids someday
[] I’ve had children 
[] I’ve lost a child  
[] I can’t have children

RELATIONSHIPS: 
[x] I’m single 
[] I’m in a relationship
[] I’m engaged 
[] I’m married
[] I’ve gone on a blind date 
[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper
[] I miss someone right now 
[x] I have a fear of abandonment 
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship 
[] I’ve gotten divorced 
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
[] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did 
[] I’ve kept something from a past relationship
[x] I’ve been ‘the other woman’

SEXUALITY: 
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher 
[] I am a cuddler
[] I’ve kissed in the rain
[] I’ve hugged a stranger 
[] I have kissed a stranger

BAD TIMES: 
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol
[] I regularly drink
[] I can’t swallow pills
[x] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
[] I shut others out when I’m upset
[x] I take anti-depressants
[] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it 
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[] I’m addicted to self harm
[] I’ve woken up crying 
[x] I’ve lost weight 
[x] I’ve gained weight 
[] My weight holds me back 
[] Weight consumes me 
[] I’m at my thinnest 
[] I’m at my biggest 
[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off 
[] I’ve lost weight but gained it back 
[] My weight affects my mood 
[x] I weigh myself daily 
[] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me 
[] I thrive on compliments 
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size 
[] I feel happy when I’m hungry 
[] I get depressed after I eat 
[x] I’ve skipped a meal 
[x] I’ve thrown food away 
[] I’ve spit food out 
[x] I’ve fasted 
[] I’ve taken diet pills 
[] I’ve used laxatives 
[] I’ve purged 
[x] I exercise 
[x] I exercise so I can eat 
[] I work out secretly 
[] I work out daily  
[] I’ve fainted from exhaustion 

I’ve done: 
[x] Weed 
[x] Cigarettes 
[x] Alcohol 
[] Diet pills 
[] Pain killers 
[x] Sleeping pills
[x] Anti-depressants 
[] Ecstasy 
[] LSD 
[] Mushrooms 
[] Speed 
[] Cocaine 
[] Other
 
HABITS:
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret 
[x] I look at thinspo 
[] I collect thinspo 
[x] I count calories 
[] I’ve had negative intake days 
[] I avoid food 
[] I hate food 
[x] I love food 
[] I want to be this way 
[] I don’t want to be like this 
[x] I wish I could have more control 
[] Being thin is my top priority 
[] I am in treatment 
[x] I’m doing this for me 
[x] I’m doing this for someone 
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself